What's my direction?

I have just talked to mommy regarding about further studies. She seems okay about it but the problem is, i am weak in my english language. I want to upgrade myself. I want to learn English. Mom is going to ask XiuYing auntie tomorrow regarding about those English courses. Hopefully i can spare the time to attend such lessons outside.

Did i mention about a CPA and ACCA talk in TP recently? I am extremely inspired by the speaker. She's young and she already has 10 jobs in the past. She shared with us her experience and how she did it. She's aggressive and yet i admire her. Now i do not know what should i do. To take my Uni Degree first then take part time ACCA or should i just take ACCA since it constitutes a degree too! My initial plan was to take a degree in uni and then my part-time ACCA. I know it's tough to work and study part-time. I know it's gonna be hell and i am worried that i don't have the determination. I know i ought to learn self-control but i am damn weak at it. I can't resist shopping so what makes you think i can resist everything and just study and work? I am no superwoman.

Sometimes i feel that i am too "slacked". I lack discipline. Time management has always been my weakness and i am learning to plan my time well but hell, i always fail. I tell myself to save $, but i ended up spending more than intended. I love to shop for clothes and more and later, i realise that i don't wear them. That's what most girls do. Waste $. I want to own a house.I want to earn my first million just like those "superwoman" in the magazines can. But can i really do that? What's stopping me from being the best? I am not focus, that's the answer. I have always tell myself, i want to, i want to... But i always didn't do it. What's the matter with me? Or is it just me? Is the general people like me? I really wonder.But tonight, i finally did something i wanted to do long ago. That is to put the photos into the album. I did that! But shit, i have not done my CRA tutorial for tomorrow, my AA tutorial for last week, my tax tutorials and many many more things. People tell me, plan ur stuff well but not too much. That's what i remember from Mr Tan Cher Chong. He inspires me when i was 16 with the book "Tuesdays with morrie" I am extremely greatful to know him and yes, i will never forget him.

Let's talk about something more relax. ArgH! I feel tension in me.

Some pictures? YEAH!


My 10th month anniversary with darling


The sick me with make-up and formal clothes.

I miss my darling. Wish he's here hugging me, telling me that everything's gonna be fine.